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[Oct. 2nd, 2006|08:07 pm] |
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So I'm sitting here reading this stupid book Song of Solomon when I was thinking about what events happened on sunday. Nothing too bad but I definately did something I shouldn't of, it felt so right when I was there but feels so wrong when I'm here. I kissed Josh and he told me he missed me and thought about me often. He's doing really well, but I kissed him. and from now on when nathan says to me I trust you, i have no reason not to trust you I cringe inside. although it is just a kiss and we;ve been dating for only two months, i feel something for him. I would never want to hurt him and now im debating on telling him-if I do he will be mad and won't trust me, if I don't I know I'm just sitting on a lie. I'm trying so hard to just think of it as a peck, something stupid, a stupid mistake. but what makes it worse it taht it was with josh, and that i knew it was going to happen and i wanted it to happen. but now that i am here i have a bad feeling in my stomach, i didn't have it all day and ididnt have it last night, but im sitting here lonely, quite, and my mind just wondering. Yesterday when i got home nathan hugged me like he has never hugged me before, like he cared and missed me. then when we were in bed together we were more passionate than ever, and i could feel that maybe one day i could love him. and maybe one day i could forget about josh adn be happy with my life here, im already starting to like the school, maybe i should try to like other parts of my life here. i dont want what nathan and i have right now-it feels so right that we are waiting and that he cares enough about me to wait and i dont want to mess that up. but it might be too late. |
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[May. 18th, 2006|01:51 pm] |
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Unfortuately it doesn't look like I can make it to Pitt this weekened. I took off work and made good money last week but I have to make first months rent, security deposit, and any new stuff for the apt I have to buy/charge. Plus with gas prices being out of this world it'll just be too much to handle. So maybe in a few weeks once my bank account isn't throwing up dollar bills. But i miss you girls and I can't wait to see you again! Megan did offer to drive to OU this weekend on Saturday to see her beau. But I would rather work and make 120$. We'll see what happens.... I have to translate a song into sign language today, and I picked "I bleieve" by blessed union of souls, and I'm so tempted to start off with the Napoleon Dynamite bird sign he does. Cant wait.. |
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[Apr. 25th, 2006|01:05 pm] |
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Find your own pose!
This absolutely cracked me up, and is not at all true. I love to snuggle bitches.
this is what it said
The Colon is the chosen pose of individuals who, on their own, seem awkward or remote. They may be the sort who responds to telephone messages with email, or spends their lunchtimes quietly pedometer-walking in lieu of socializing with coworkers. But when a Colonist finds its mate, together they acquire a grace and ease that surprises friends and family.
Comfort Zone The Colon is one of the Sea Sleeper poses. Other Sea poses you might try: The Ticket Puncher and Sixth Posture of the Perfumed Forest.
A Note About Coping Since Colonists rely so heavily on their partners to give them context and spark, the times when business or family obligations take one of them away from home can leave both sleepers demoralized. To temporarily fill the void, swap in a large, carnival-sized stuffed animal, making sure to keep candles, space heaters, or other combustibles well away from the bedside.
Funny too...bc I sleep with a body pillow. hm. |
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[Mar. 6th, 2006|01:04 pm] |
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the next time I see a girl over the age of 18 wearing a bow in their hair, I'm going to strangle them. |
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[Feb. 16th, 2006|11:46 am] |
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funny, i just read kate's journal entry, and i was just about to write about the weather adn a crazy dream i had in the afternoon too. crazy. but the wheather is absolutely beautiful here. It's 60 degrees outside and i even straigtened my hair today so i can feel the warm breeze on my scalp. being a science geek that i am, i read that since we have had such a warm winter that we're gonna have crazy amounts of mosquitos and flies when summer comes, becuase the tempertures hasnt been low engouh for a long enough time to kill off last seasons, so can't wait until malaria and the bird flu come this summer! |
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[Feb. 14th, 2006|01:48 pm] |
I know i said I wouldn't do it.... but i'm on facebook now. geez...
please add me so i look like i have friends. |
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[Feb. 6th, 2006|11:01 pm] |
well that took about 2 seconds to find..
Love is passion, obsession, someone you can't live without. If you don't start with that, what are you going to end up with? Fall head over heels. I say find someone you can love like crazy and who'll love you the same way back. And how do you find him? Forget your head and listen to your heart. I'm not hearing any heart. Run the risk, if you get hurt, you'll come back. Because, the truth is there is no sense living your life without this. To make the journey and not fall deeply in love - well, you haven't lived a life at all. You have to try. Because if you haven't tried, you haven't lived. |
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[Jan. 24th, 2006|03:46 pm] |
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i know i just wrote an entry but im supposed to be reading two chapters in this book-the power or myth- before i go to work but i can't force myself to do it. today was the first day that i had met up with "friends" and had "lunch" on campus. it was really megans friends and we just realized today that we both have an hour break at the same time. soooo i went, felt awkward, wanted to go to the library so i could try to get some work done, and really missed pitt. and it sounds pathetic that im remembering and wishing i could go back to my freshman year.. but i miss meeting my friends in the dining hall and getting a big table so everyone could fit, walking around in sweatpants and my hair in a bun. i miss cutting people hair and hanging out and watching friends and will and grace-shows i never really watched before pitt. i will never get over the fact that i had to leave the best time in my life because of money situations. i can say that the best times of my life were that freshman year getting to know everyone on the floor and growing my pitt family. i would give anything to have that again. to have a phonebook full of friends that i was just getting to know and find out where the biggest keg party is. but im old now. and have to go to work. and pay for bills. but i wish for just one more day to be that freshman that played Kings in the dorm and drunkingly took the shuttle bus to a frat party, get beer spilt all over me and make out with random hot guys, go home and drunk dial people from home and pass out. those were the days... |
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[Jan. 18th, 2006|05:55 pm] |
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life handed us a paycheck and we said, "we worked harder than this!"
my obsession with modest mouse is getting stronger.
I just talked to Josh....who has called the past three days..world record.. but anywho... he's meeting with these two chicas he might move in with b/c they live in the city and I kind of mentioned under my breath
"no.. i want to move in with you" -without even thinkin first
"ummm...well"-you could tell he didnt know what to say
"I'm not kidding...(small giggle)"- toooootally awkward
"I know you do..."-how does he know i want to when ive never mentioned it before? am i that desperate?
"well good luck with the meeting i hope you get the apartment"-trying to break the awkwardness he might feel
"are you ok??"- i guess i sounded pissed or upset when i said it-i dont remember
"yea..i just have a bad headache"-awkward moment over. |
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| very acurate quizzy |
[Jan. 9th, 2006|01:16 pm] |
| You scored as Chemistry. You should be a Chemistry major! As if that isnt clear enough, you are deeply passionate about Chemistry, and every single chemical reaction and concept fascinates you. Pursue that!
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